soon-to-be a USC graduate.
like everyone else, i have this love-hate relationship with school. i want to stay longer in school because it’s fun and no body will judge you when you fail in something. they would simply say, “oh, college students!”. sometimes i want to be done with school faster because the course load are just crazy and i’m tired of studying. but then i don’t want to graduate, yes, because i have no clue what to do after school. people who got it figured out, great. but me, i haven’t. i want to work here in US, yet have not got any job secured, not even internship. i want to work, but don’t want to go through the hassle of applying, interviewed, got rejected, broke down, and apply again. until now have no urge to look for jobs, scared of interviews and the tight competition of business students who look for jobs. haven’t taken any GMAT or applied to any grad schools. i don’t want to go back to indo right after graduation but somehow i know its gonna be more convenient there. everything will be taken care of somehow and its easier to get a job. but it’s hard for me to leave everything i have built here. i don’t want to leave my apartment, my car, my school, my yoga, my church, my independence. everything will be taken away from me if i go back.
dilemma dilemma.
i’m so disappointed of myself. for being a coward. lazy. not passionate and ambitious.
what to do with this life?
where is wisdom when i need it the most?
#GALAU
