this is not dukes' regular scribbles

transformah and air conditionah

hello

sori nih ye bikin sirik, tapi gue udah nonton transformer baru. HAH! last night when me, artia, ben, manda were practicing for Cath’s wedding (ada edo dan astrid juga), gw tiba2 keinget kalo transformer bakal kluar minggu2 ini, but didnt know exactly when its gonna be. so i was like, “eh! ntar lagi transformer kluar nih, musti nonton nih!”

tiba2 si edo bilang: “loh! itu tanggal 24, which is malem ini!”

akhirnya kita smua spakat untuk nonton yang jam 12.10 malem, sacrificing our concentration for our classes the next day, which are mostly start at 8 in the morning.

so we went and eat first at wings stop, ordering 50 chicken wings plus the delicious french fries,

and then went to the theater. the movie was so good, with all the effects and the hotness of shia+meagan, that movie could never go wrong. but for some reason, yah, i like the previous one better. eventho this one is funnier, maybe because of the plot yang lebih ok gw lebih suka yang kmaren. yang ini seru deh, but some scenes are just obviously too exaggerating like the one where sam dreams that he meets all the primes who want him to bring optimus back to life. oh, and the one where the girl seduce sam in his dorm room (in harvard, psshhh), and it turns out that the girl was one of the decepticon, that was pretty lame. also the one where the soldiers flies to egypt, come on, they wouldnt make it that fast! 

i gave out too much, didnt i?

ok i better stop now, or else id go on and on and on and oooon, and never stops.

anyway, enough about the movie.

hari ini kelas accounting ga ada yang aneh2 ato menarik, just regular lecture along with my confusions about the materials. on my way home, i hopelessly look for the accounting textbook in the get used bookstore nearby my apartment, and magically i found the ONLY one left (ive been coming to this store for 2days in a row and find none), and bought it for $6. pretty good deal, eh?

after that gw ama astrid pergi makan ke denny’s, berjalan ditengah2 panas, kering, terik dan menyebalkannya matahari summer. its been very hot in pleasant hill this past 2 days, and so kmaren, gw, dengan tanpa mikir langsung beli ac nya caro (she’s transferring thus selling her air-con), dan bayar air-con installment  fee nya ke kantor apartment. they said that it needs 2 days (boo!) to install the air con, bcos it needs to be measured first, and then installed.

tapiiiii… pas abis pulang makan di denny’s itu, when i open my bedroom door, look what i found:

my summerlife saver, air conditioner. ; )

ps: summerlife savers, i should say, as this guitar is also keeping me from dying because of super high level of boredom.

maaf yah foto nya gede2, males ngecilinnya. hehehehe 

chao!

Date: 06.24.09 Time: 19:01 PM
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ga jelas vol. 2

tersadarku oleh mimpi

kenyataan yang jauh dari apapun didiriku

tiada guna memaksa hati untuk tau apa tujuannya

tiada arti bertanya apakah rasa ini

dalam hatiku dunia serasa acak

terkadang dia tertawa sampai menangis, dan detik lain dia menangis sampai tidak sanggup berdiri

bila di sini, tempat kita hidup, ia lah penerang dan sumber percaya

mengapa ada derita karenanya?

mengapa ada gundah karenanya?

mengapa merana gelisah olehnya?

mengapa saat ia datang, semuanya kabur bagai bayangan dimalam hari

disaat hati merasa pasti, namun ia pergi dan menghilang

hanya meninggalkan luka sedikit saja, yang dalam

disaat hati merasa sesat, ia datang dan memegang tangan

hanya sesentuh saja, yang menenangkan

mungkin jangan datang, itu lebih baik

karna ketidakpastian membawaku pada derita abadi

bukan aku ingin dan bukan merasa

aku tau tempatku, dan perasaan ku

hanya tidak tau kemana dan bagaimana membawanya jauh

darimu yang selalu melemparnya kesana kemari, seperti ia tiada harga

mungkin saatnya aku kembali

kepada kesendirian yang aman

ketempat persembunyianku, dimana semua gundah gulana telah tertumpuk

namun tertutup, hanya untuk aku nikmati sendiri bersama angin yang membawanya pergi

sedikit demi sedikit

hingga itu hilang

begitu juga dirimu dari aku dan perasaanku

Date: 06.23.09 Time: 03:02 AM
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weekend end

hello

well… it turns out that i had a lot of fun this weekend. that’s good, considering that gw lagi pms. tee hee hee. but i think my pms-ity force me to think and act hedon-ically, tho.

FRIDAY

sabtu ini akhirnya jalan2 ke sf bareng ama jeffta, andrew, dan indah doang. jojo ikut juga awalnya, tapi pulang duluan karna bakal ada cell group di rumahnya (nyeh). ternyata, di sf jeffta janjian ama temennya dulu anak smukie, namanya lia dan marius. jadi lah kita berjalan2 bersama2 keliling union square. 

first stop: bloomingdales

tadinya si jeffta mau beliin oleh2 spatu tory burch buat adenya, tapi ga ktemu sizenya, alhasil malah si indah yang beli moisturizer. 

abis itu kita lanjut ke swarovski nemenin andru beliin oleh2 buat gatau sapanya. lalu,

next stop : nordstrom

disni kita misah ama si jeffta dll ke japantown, gw ama indah jalan2 bedua doang. kita ke barneys melihat spatu2 bagus lagi diskon, and look what i found 

isn’t it a beauty? :D

abis beli barang cantik itu akhirnya kita off to caffeine,  cafe kecil di 835 geary street, where anak indonesia usually hang out. ternyata sugih, si pemain gitar, dateng bareng ama adeline dan kim. so there we were, a bunch of indonesian kids, squeezed together in a small-spaced cafe. gw dan jeffta nyanyi about like, umm.. prolly 12 songs, dan ternyata ga ada anak indo yang dateng. smuanya yang dateng bulek, dan some turis dari prancis. 

sama indah, kim dan adeline (jefta nyempil)

nanannana (wth)

sama sang gitaris, sugih muliadi

sama jeffta, (me), indah, andrew

 marius, lia, me, indah, jeffta

si jeffta nyanyi ama bule prancis yang suaranya bagus. di ujung2 dia curi2 kesempatan meluk sang bulek.

video nya nyusul.

so, that was fun. with a couple cup of beers enhanced the night, id say that night was nearly perfect, except for the fact that i really dunno what to do for tomoro

SATURDAY

very very kebo, bangun jam 12 dan makan english muffin 3 skaligus. had zero plan for the day and no one was available and astrid was gone and wait…

ada sms dari petra : “deas, ikut bridal showernya cath ga?”

sh*t gw lupa hari ini cath ada acara bridal shower di rumah calon mertuanya!

fyi, cath itu adalah orang greja gw, dia pmain keyboard di tim musik nya gereja nazarene, and she is going to be married with hendra (who turns out to be sodara jauh gue), yang juga pemain drum di tim musik gereja. the wedding is going to be next week (27th june 09) and im going to be singing there too! (fun, but scary at the same time)

so anyway, itu udah jam 12 dan gw gatau mo ksana sama syp. gw nyante dulu, coz i thought partynya maleman, akhirnya jam 2an gw telp ci monica (another church people) tentang acaranya. ternyata sodara2, acaranya adalah jam TIGA SORE saja. jadi stelah melewati ke hectican sesaat, akhirnya gw siap, and off we go to hendra’s house.

disana, sudah banyak orang. dan tida gw sangka2, ternyata banyak tante2 dari sgala umur! i thought it’s gonna be lyk a bachelorette par-tay with sexy hot hot stripper but… o well. tp ternyata fun juga kok gosip ama tante2 gahul buahaha. 

about that stripper part, turns out i was wrong.

there was a stripper, only… it’s a woman. yes, a(n old) woman stripper among women. hmm…

….yang akhirnya malah ngajarin tante2 joget

SUNDAY

di gereja tadi dikit banget yang dateng, dan musiknya pun cuma akustik, but i dk why, maybe because of the pms effect, i felt happy. pas pulang kerumah, astrid dr boston dan manda dr indo dateng! (YAYY!!! :D) akhirnya the happy group of astrid, manda, ben, edo, artia, and myself went together and ate sushi at damo. tee hee hee.

but, 

gw lumayan sedih nih. my goodfriend renno was having a birthday at shangrila hotel jakarta, and I COULDNT GO! anak2 highschoolyear yang laen pada dateng gitu padahal. huuu. but eniwei, i hope they had fun (which they obviously did), and i just wanna say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVELY RENNO! MISS YOU TONS!!!!!

satu lagi yang bikin sedih : tomoro is the beginning of my 6 weeks summer class. im taking an accounting class, it’s an early class (i mean lyk, early-early, 7.30am). but hopefully it’d be fun and not boring. 

anyway, i have a wishlist that i want to share with you guys. 

1. Fendi Timepieces Buckle Black Leather Watch

gotta loveeee this watch. 

2. diane von furstenberg sandal 

lucu nihhh buat summer tee hee hee

3. ysl downtown tote

buat nyante2 jalan2 dengan warna coklat muda yang oke (bukan abu ini loh.. ga ada coklat nya di foto)

…. and last but not least…

4. mercedes benz c300 (white)

no comment

WOOOO!

ah udah ah capek. udah jam stengah satu nih, gotta get up at 7 tomoro. ya udah deh. doain wishlist2 ini terkabulkan yah. BUAHAHA

alrighty. that’s all for tnite and c u when i want to see you! :P

Date: 06.22.09 Time: 03:29 AM
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lazy friday and the end of econ

hello

udah lega nih gw skarang. bisa berleha2 engkang2 kaki sambil tumblr-ing. you know why?

my 3 weeks econ class is OVAH man, OVAH. DONE. DEAD dengan indahnya.

berhubung kelas 3 minggu gw udah beres, tadi gw bareng ama geng manohara makan di jayakarta, berkeley which is one of indo restaurant in bay area. ok, so tadi pagi gw udah makan 3 english muffin plus jam AND meses, dilanjutkan dengan makan sore : mie pake ayam teriyaki ala deasy, sebelum akhirnya mengerjakan exam online dirumah indah. di jayakarta makannya buaanyaaak tenan, mulai dari ikan, ayam, rendang, tempe, udang, sampe ke pete pun ada, ditambah lagi dengan ditemani es duren yang aduhai nikmat, pol deh lemaknya. jadi basically hari ini gw makan kaya dinosaurus lagi pms, dan alhasil berat gw memuncak bagaikan puncak gunung himalaya (hopefully this is the puncak, i mean lyk, really, no further climb)

anyway. setelah pulang ke apartmen dari makan tadi gw smpet bingung mau ngapain besok. secara astrid lagi ke boston, seminar. si sunayana, my indian-temporary roommate gatau ngapain. ya udah deh, fesbukan kali yee…

ternyata pas lagi fesbuk+msn an, temen gw namanya iman bilang, “wah, deas, besok maen di lazy friday ya, gw liat flyernya keren banget!”

gw yang, “mm. ha?”

pas gw liat, flyernya :

wow. gw samaskali ga ada persiapan. si sugih (gitaris band djojonegoro yang biasanya maen dimana2) juga konon baru nelfon gw beberapa jam sebelum itu, dan gw bilang gw males nyanyi. but appearantly ada sedikit insist-ansi di dalam cafe itu. jadi ya sblum ada further ado, kata mreka, “mari kita kluarkan flyer supaya deasy dan sugih ga bisa ga maen”

hmm.

padahal i already have rencana buat hari besok. mau ke san francisco jalan2 ama indah, calvina, nia, andru, jeffta, nola siang2. akibat ini, yah, bukannya dicancel sih, tapi ya jam tidur gw jadi kurang karna latian buat lazy friday nya adalah besok pagi. sbenernya gapapa sih, i think it’s fun nyanyi di cafe itu, but.. the thing is.. i’m not good at communicating with the audience, especially if it’s in english. it’s like, i’ll sing as many songs you want, but pls dont ask me to talk to those people, coz i suck at it. 

jadi yahhh… well see tomoro how it goes. 

chao for now!

Date: 06.19.09 Time: 03:34 AM
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my wish list

i wish i wouldve read more books to make me smarter and berwawasan luas dan ber english bagus

i wish i took vocal, piano, guitar, and drum lesson when i was younger

i wish i have interest in economy, politics and philosophy

i wish i took kedokteran as my major

i wish im more tegas and know what i want

i wish i could buy the newest handbags from neiman marcus, barneys, or bloomingdales

i wish im more spiritual, love jesus, and read bible daily

i wish im not short tempered and mau kalah sometimes

i wish im not perfectionist and not shy

i wish im more outgoing and happy than i am now

i wish my family were more open minded and modern

i wish my house is bigger and more modern

i wish i have the latest macbook

i wish i can spend more time with my bestfriends like other people do

i wish i have a boyfriend that completes me and makes me happy all the time

i wish to get in to usc or ucla or umich, maybe ucb

i wish i can find or make a best friend in pleasant hill since i’ve lost one and still hurting from that

i wish im not that evil 

i wish that i become more responsible in every task given to me

i wish im not that serious in responding things

i wish i can get out of dvc with 4.0 to make my parents proud and to get into good schools i mentioned above

i wish im not shy and good at sumptioning when singing in public

i wish that i have a job that i love doing

i wish that my room is a master bedroom, a purple one

i wish that i become more diligent in posting blog

i wish i go to the gym more often and love sports

i wish i have c300 sport with navigation system

i really really wish that i become thinner, 55 is good, doesnt have to be 48, AND I WILL, soon

i wish that i stop comparing my life to others and envy others

but,

the one thing that I really really do wish is to stop making this list longer

and be more thankful and grateful for what I have

Date: 06.10.09 Time: 03:09 AM
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hello, it's been hella long fella!

bener ya kata orang, the more mature you are, the more you tend to ignore small things in life.

udah staun, gila, since the last time i spent my time doing this fun thing called blogging. it’s 2 o clock in the morning, and that means that ive spent 2 hours reading my goblog2-tapi-cute old posts. i came to realize that i do miss blogging and spending some time ‘nyampah’, writing random stuff.

and yes, blogging is one of those small things i ignored as i get older, more boring, and become less appreciative of fun stuff i used to do.

hmmm

geez, i hate this. it’s like when you meet an old friend, you have tons of things to say, but you just dont know where to start. thats exactly what i feel right now. i have lots and lots and stuff to share and catch up, but i just dont know where to start.

how bout this:

why dont we just forget this past one year, and as i start my daily blogging, ill tell whatever happens in this past year that relates to current stuff? sounds good, eh?

ok, for a starter, i’ll tell you what is going on in my life now:

it’s summer time and i decided not to go home since i thought that ill get a summer job. but i ended up not working because im trapped in this 3-weeks microeconomic class, which force me not to think about anything else but costs, marginal products, blabla and all that shit. i didnt even get to finish my freakin cover letter!

i miss everybody at home, specially my besties that i havent met for ages, but the other thing that holds me from going home is my goal (now has officially become my obsession) to lose some weight. yeup, no home for me. not until i shed some of this fats off my butt.

(now you know why i decided to start posting lol)

so…

that should be enough for a start.

well, i had to get up at 8.30 tomoro morning for the sunday service, i guess i think im done for tonight.

I’M BACK! YAY ME!! :D

Date: 06.07.09 Time: 05:01 AM
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the saddest 'goodnight'. .(still am not crying)

malem ini tu malem trakhir gw di hot springs. graduation kmaren was fun! it wasnt as long as i expected, so that’s even better. abis itu ada party dirumah, yang dateng skitar 16 an orang, so that was good. ada steven, charla, emily, sara, erin, carly, breann, eric, marina, charity, dll. it was a fun lil party.

pagi ini kita ke gereja dan ada graduate recognition. smua anak senior yang graduate (nic rogers, cody davis, dan schodjt, joe baker, and daisy sibarani) di suruh kedepan gereja, di congrats dan dikasih quilting bison, which is my school mascot. abis itu ada coffee time dimana orang2 bisa visit ke para graduate sambil minum kopi. jan sang iec dan nina dari jerman juga dateng. so it was a fun time. abis itu, kluarga gw picnic ke cascade falls, makan ayam goreng ama potato salad (my favorite). it was really2 fun. gw udah deket banget ama hostsis ama hostbro gw blakangan dan itu bikin gw makin sedih. abis itu kita pulang, nonton2, trus si tobie ngajak ke dairy queen dan cruisin around town karna kmaren dia ga bisa dateng ke party gw. pas di dairy queen, tiba2 jan sang iec dan suaminya steve dateng dan nyruh gw tutup mata, dan naro ssuatu ditangan gw. and guess what?

MREKA NEMUIN CLASS RING GW!!

isnt it awesome?! geez. what a day.

trus gw pulang dan hangout di ruang kluarga. trus pas malem, si wendy udah mo tidur, dia dateng ke kamar gw, dan bilang, “deasy, gw takut besok pagi lo ga kan sadar akan apa yang gw omongin, jadi gw bakal ngasih lo pelukan malem ini.” terus dia meluk gw gitu kan. mata nya udah kaca2. gw masih nyante. trus dia meluk lagi, bilang,” deasy, it has been a really fun year. it has really been. i’m really glad we had you in our family. lo itu udah kaya ank gw sendiri. i wish you’re my child. you’re a really good kid, you’re parents has took a really good care of you. i’m going to write you a letter and going to send you your stuff. visit us sometimes. don’t bawl.” ok itu ga exactly yang dia bilang. gw udah lupa sih. ada di convo msn nya gw ama dea. fuck harusnya gw save itu convo. but o well. dia yang bilang itu sambil nangis2 kesendat2 gitu. gw ga pernah liat dia close up nangis. dan dia meluk gw tadi sambil nangis2. gw kira di bcanda, tapi beneran. dan yang paling sedihnya, gw ga nangis balik. gw sedih tapi ga bisa nangis.

goblog teu?

gw ngrasa aneh banget. dua minggu yang lalu gw nangis2 tiap malem, gw masih inget banget waktu si maya masih di amrik, gw crita ke dia gw nangis2 hampir tiap malem. tapi dari sejak senen kmaren, gw udah ga gitu lagi. skolah beres, kmaren udah ktemu nyokap di chicago so there’s nothing that i really eager to see in indo, and i just found out that gw bakal kangen makanan amrik lebih dari gw kangen makanan indo. gwg a  napsu lagi ngapa2in. yang penting gw lakuin apa yang gw harus lakuin dan like let everything happen ajalah gitu. gw udah cape terlalu banyak involving emotion in everything i do kayanya. blabla. besok gw pulang dan skarang masih ga brubah keadaan feeling gw. (cie keadaan feeling). kya yang, gw ga mau pulang, tapi ga mau stay disini juga. gw pengen bareng ama kluarga knecht terus, tapi gw kangen ama kluarga sibarani juga. huaah. gatau ah. besok gw paling parahnya ga dianter wendy. jadi cuma zack ama beth aka hostbro and hostsis. i dont think i m gonna cry. sedih banget ga sih gw? aneh. ga nangis udah staun disin juga. ahhhhh anehhhh!!!!

Date: 05.19.08 Time: 00:20 AM
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hey dude, whats up?

wow, it’s been a while since my last post aint it?

well, this is my last week in south dakota and i think i need to wrap up this year with a little touch of a post in my most-of-the-time-abandoned-by-me tumblr blog.

this year has been,mmm, fun? naaah, let’s just say it’s been good. i’ve learned a lot of stuff that didnt know before, and prolly wouldnt know if i wasnt in this program. i think i changed a lot since i came here. actually it’s more like, knowing myself better. im not the person that i used to know. some of em are in a good way, but some of em arent.

(before) :

i remember the first time i came, i felt like i was trapped here. in the middle of no where. i wanted to cry when the first time i looked out the window from the plane, coz all i saw was land. no buildings, at all. and im serious. i wanna get of the plane and go back to olympia, where the language camp was. but thinking that all the people in there were already gone, it makes me wanna cry even more. at camp, my head was always full of imagination of what’s the family gonna be like, the school, the people, am i gonna popular or not, blahblah that kinda stuff in a form where its too good to be true. 

i met my hostfamily who were nice, but hey, they’re not my family. wendy (hostmom) never rubbed like my mom used to do, she cant cook ikan teri sambel like my mom, she never even pay for my toothbrush. she is not my mom. john (hostdad) always joking and teasing me. my dad’s not like that. my hostsister, emma,  is a sophomore and she’s not popular, which is kinda dissapointing because itll be alot easier for me if it’s the other way around. we dont really talk on the first months, maybe because we dont really have so much stuff in common. she loves books (she even wrote a book that she talks about all the time), i dont.  she loves video games, i dont. we dressed differently and have different taste. we both love music, but different genre. she plays music, i sing music. sometimes she got really obnoxious and really childish, but its still tolerable. my other hostsister and hostbrother are all nice, but still, they’re not my real family. i never enjoyed family gathering because all i can think of is my family back home.

school. dude it’s sucks, a lot.  i was really quiet at the beginning and when i try to start to talk to people it felt weird. i swear i cried almost everyday. i felt like a geek. no friend, no hangout after school, computer and calendar were my only babies. my social life was pretty much dead. i started to see my self not the way i wanted to. I, uhm, hate myself? for being not social enough, for being a fatgirl who doesnt play anysports at all and still fucking tried to be in the club, for being a smart ass, yeah, for being nerd. i regret coming here, i wish i could turn back time, and could go back to good ol’ sma 5.

but hey, it WAS like that. wanna know what i think NOW about my life?

kay, so earlier i said “…my head was always full of imagination of what’s the family gonna be like, the school, the people, am i gonna popular or not..”.

highschool. popularity, that’s all that matters aint it? if you hangout with cool people, than your highschool life will be awesome. all i could think of was how to be popular and how to fit in with the cool kids. that was highschool meant for me. but then i realize, how stupid and immature i was. socializing is crucial, but you dont have to force yourself to be popular. you just have to enjoy what you have, y know. me? i did regret that i spent too much time thinking about that crap that i almost couldnt enjoy half of my year here, but in the end, it’s not like i dont have any friends. i made friends with everyone : nerd, popular, (even) jerks, etcetc, just like what charles told me to do. i said i felt like a nerd (still, a lil bit lol) , but hey, what’s wrong with being a nerd? it’s never wrong to get all A’s, right?

John, he’s the most awesome hostfather (beside bapak sibarani of course). his jokes are (most of the time) funny, his face expression always makes me laugh spontaneously, he always looks funny with his dog, penny. and the most important, he is nice and supportive. i’ll missed being teased by him when i get home.wendy, she’s the most awesome hostmom (beside my real mom) i’ve ever met. she really cares for me, and when i think of it, she’s always been like that. not in my indonesian way, but in american way. she cooks awesome foods. she’s really supportive, fun, and strong. i love her. my head was too tired whinning, that’s why i couldnt be grateful on the first months. emma, she rocks! i wouldnt say that she’s the most awesome sister (well duh, who can beat betty?), but she’s really really nice to me, she’s fun to hang with, she’s really active, she never did bad stuff to me. in fact, most of the time im the one who did bad stuff to her, and i really regret it. family gathering cant be more fun. zack always tease b, i always scare andrew, justin always piss john off, emma always make wendy mad. no, that last two arenot true. but, you know what i mean. lol.

and i did learn a lot of stuff. here’s some of the stuff that i learn:

• learn not to laugh if people asking the stupidest question ever

• it’s hard being an exchange student
• dont be affraid to talk to everyone

• americans eat salary+peanut butter which is the sickest thing ever
• americans eat pickles which is the second sickest thing ever
• american girls shave their legs
• americans never study
• americans argue alot over unimportant stuff
• american has liberal way of thinking, different from asian
• americans disgusted by people who eat with their hand (that’d be me)
• american kids love to whine. about everything. just do your stuff and shut up!
• americans looooove sports. which is why athletes are popular at school
• american foods are easy to make. they looove burgers.
• etcetc

huhh.. now it’s time to pack all my stuff and go. i was pretty surprised that my friends were actually sad that im gone. i was pretty surprised finding myself cried a few times at night thinking im gonna be gone soon. i love hot springs. i love my  family. i love my friends. i love my teachers. i love the people. i’m gonna miss this place so much. and im gonna bring the memories with me wherever i’ll go.

i needed two days to finish this post. and i want to change what i said in the beggining of this post ” this year has been,mmm, fun? naaah, let’s just say it’s been good”. actually, this year really has been a fun year. i dont regret coming here. all that i regret is not to make the best out of it. i have new friends, new teacher, new home, new family, which form the new me.

well, now im done with highschool, with the exchange year. need to start all over again. and now college (uuu..), in san fransisco. i hope there’ll be more excitement for me next year and the next year, and the next year, and…

talk to you again soon! :D

Date: 05.14.08 Time: 16:33 PM
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